day 2.

doing better, falling back in the swing of things.

- green shake (remember me?)
- 10 almonds
- salad: cabbage, cilantro, half of an avocado
- a nectarine
- half of a package of tempeh (not sure if it counts as raw, but it is fermented, so i say it's ok. when i look at the mold i'm eating, i feel like i'm doing myself a favor)
- a whole lot of veggie chips
- a couple of dried apricots

not too bad, but the food is already tiresome. the problem is that i'm leaving for nyc tomorrow so i didn't feel like i should buy a bunch of produce and then skip town. oh well.

day 1.

Yes, I'm eating raw food again. Ya'll know the drill: pooping, incessant hunger and oscillations between euphoria and crankiness. Why you ask? Because I love it. To be fair, I love pooping 3,4,5+ times a day, I love never having to make the decision about whether or not I should have another cookie (both answers are always wrong), I love having more energy on less sleep, and I don't know how many times I can say this, but I love a clean colon. What can you do? Don't make me defend myself or my kooky diet (I know it's crap, but it's a good way of cutting out all of the things that make me feel crappy in a systematic way that I wouldn't have the willpower for otherwise: namely wheat, dairy and sugar), don't buy me a beer, and don't say the word "cookie." Thanks.

I didn't plan ahead today, so my food options were limited and I was starving. I blame my unending hunger on skimping out during the day. In my experience, how you eat in the morning really does affect your food intake and hunger for the rest of the day. Nevertheless, I made it.

- 2 or 3 handfuls of raisins
- 3/4 cup of baby carrots
- smoothie: blueberries, banana, pineapple
- 2 bananas, each with almond butter (probably 1/4 c. total)
- cabbage salad (3 c.) with cilantro and a handful of dried apricots
- a few more (maybe a handful) dried apricots
- cocoa mole larabar
- some delicious veggie chips that were given to me by the manager of sunflower market for free! not sure if these are dehydrated or fried/baked, but they are delicious and he was trying to be helpful, so I'll look the other way. Thanks!

Not too bad, really. I took no supplements and am still deciding if I am going to be taking psyllium or not. To be honest, I hate it. I dry heave and wretch trying to get it down, but I love what it does for the consistency of my poop. I'll have to see if it's worth the sacrifice.

cheating

now that i know i dont have to be 100%.... well, anyway, it's definitely noticeably easier - i've stopped craving the salt, but i still crave substance. still always hungry, but whatever. i cant wait for thurs.

getting better

so yesterday wasn't so bad, though i cheated again (but just a bit! i was at a party, so it was hard. i had literally, 2 corn chips, and like a square inch of german chocolate cake. birthday party, cant not eat cake). i did pass up dinner at one of the best sushi places in the city, but--it would have been torturous, watching everyone else have excellent fish and stuff, me, salad. ok so since it's been weekend, i've been cooking a bunch. made chili, with this great turkey from the farmer's market (Same one where i bought the awesome bread), made hummus (bland, but not bad) and today i made pasta sauce with the tomatoes i stewed for the chili, plus _tons_ of basil from the garden. though it would have been better with some parm, definitely.

this morning i also made an egg white scramble, with tomato, green pepper, green onions, and some yukon golds. i do feel wasteful not eating the egg yolks, but i think i've resolved to accept that i was seriously lacking protein.

at least the cravings for salt have gone away. though i wouldn't mind being able to have proper milk in my coffee (i broke down and bought non dairy-non-soy creamer, which is gross) and cereal in the morning. i really miss cereal.

grrr

today is better than yesterday (thankfully! rice paste sandwich + two egg whites, tomato, cuke, green onion lemon juice and olive oil salad. AND! bread i can eat. yes. made with kosher salt. and it's good. that nasty sprouted salt free stuff is in the freezer for when i'm desperate. also: had a lara bar.)

yesterday was another story. can we say CHEATER? of course there's free sandwiches yesterday for something. and i was starving (despite my salad and peanut butter sandwich. and banana and asian pear) so i ate part of a chicken and avocado wrap (Without the wrap or the mayonaisseee lettuce). later:2 beers. get home, and ate the rest of my soup, with salt-less tortillas in it.

and ate a lot of tortillas

today, though. i'm going to feast. making stewed tomatoes so i can make chili and pasta sauce. lots of basil from the garden, and a few of the wild plum tomatoes are ripening. geez i'm hungry already.

day2/3

so i didnt write anything yesterday, not that i didnt have anything to say, but was so freaking busy with a big pinup, talk20 today, theory paper and visual studies due tomorrow.
yesterday was HARD.
1st of all, the rice milk was a bit better after having settled and i poured off a lot of the extra water, but it still doesnt bind to the coffee like any dairy milk, or even soy. i guess its partially a fat content thing. whatever. my breakfast was delightfully unsatisfactory with 2 pieces of sprouted grain salt free "bread" with a bit of apricot preserves on top.
of course, i was a) in need of more caffeine (that's what happens with several days of 6 hours of sleep) b) hungry again--so i got an earl grey tea, which i would normally take with milk, but since that's not possible, i used some sugar in stead. had a banana as well. i was again, starving before noon, so i ate my lunch-more cauliflower and a tomato cuke lemon juice salad (so good!) with a tad of olive oil. i went to the farmers market and bought some green onions, some heirloom tomatoes (one of which i've already eaten) and a box of asian pears (!yummy!!).
of course, i'm hungry again,, like an hour later, so this time i have some dried apricots. then i'm hungry again like an hour later, so i have a piece of matzah with tomato and olive oil. tried to get some coffee but really didnt want to drink it black-i went to two places, neither had non-dairy AND non-soy "creamer" options. sad. so i had some raisins. the pinup was really hard bc everyone else had such salty, protein rich foods, that i've been totally craving.

hungry again, larabar. phew! that was at like 530 and it got me until about 9 or so when i could finally have dinner. thank god i'm not raw too, bc the chicken soup i made was like HEAVEN. rich, savory (evne without salt), with yummy carrots and celery, dill and parsley (from my moms garden). also had some salt free tortilla chips and another tomato. and 2 squares of TJs bittersweet chocolate. finally. full.

i must note, that the pee has been constant, i mean, i've already gone like 3 times today, and i havent even been up for 3 hours. i've alwasy drunk a lot of water, and i'm sure the soup doesn't help, but the salt-less ness is really having an effect. i feel like my skin is super dry as well, too. can i mention how often i've pooped in the last few days? a freaking LOT.

day 1 update

feeling a bit better now that i have some tasty food (well, relatively) in my system.

lunch was a rather disappointing rice paste with strawberry topping, and some cauliflower.
did i mention the wheatless, cookedless, saltless bread with unsalted pb (which was sort of ew).

then, a larabar (Which was good---) and some raisins. a white tea with honey.

then....matzah (i figured 2 pieces is within my 2 slices of bread limit) with tomato and olive oil. and some unsalted tortilla chips.

i feel like that time of the month might be coming up (judging by my skin) thank god for tj's bittersweet chocolate, which, now that i think about it, might have salt. eek

my very own weird diet--day1

ok, unlike m, i'm not doing this on my own accord. but i'm doing it. starting today. so my diet == low iodine. what is low iodine? it means i basically cant eat anything. why? bc iodine is in salt (and sea salt! everything from the sea has iodine content), so that gets rid of a huge chunk of my edible and potable options (note, beer, wine and liquor are ok, though). other big nos--pretty much all animal products (dairy especially, but also meat, though i'm allowed up to 6 oz of meat per day, granted its completely unprocessed, fresh, organic). ok another thing that limits stuff is that iodine is apparently sometimes used as a disinfectant in prepared foods. other no nos, many beans (ie soy, red beans, pigeon peas, etc). also: no spinach (and probably other similar greens), no potato skins, some rice (some is ok, though, i guess), very limited wheat (apparently iodine content in the soil gets absorbed into wheat). luckily, i found a sprouted ezekial bread that has no wheat and no salt, and is probably ok (1 to 2 slices/day max). unfortunately, no such thing as dairy free, salt free butter substitute exists. oh well. oil it will have to be.

so the dairy and wheat is the biggest thing for me. and the no processed/prepared/restraunted foods (i _am_ in arch school which means i have zero time for prep). did i also mention that i have no usable outlets in my kitchen? so that means whenever i use appliances, i have to do it in the bedroom. like this morning:

DAY 1
i have borrowed a soy milk maker so i can make rice milk (cant use commercial bc it has sea salt, cant have soy). i soak the rice over night, i wake up early so that i can let the machine milk the rice. ok! rice milk for my coffee-except, it was super thin. hopefully letting it sit in the fridge all day will kind of let stuff settle so i can pour off the extra water, bc it didnt do a thing for my coffee. luckily, though, it left rice paste. hurray! breakfast. and lunch (with strawberries) to go with my one slice of wheat and salt free sprouted bread. with some pb.

tally so far
1 large c. coffee with watery rice milk
banana
2 large cauliflower florets
1 c. darjeeling tea with a touch of honey.
i've been up a little more than 4 hours. i'm hungry. lunch soon!